Unemployment curve ball one

Being unemployed is a weird state of life. I haven't worked full time since Babalu was a wee boy, but I have been employed in some state or another for most of the past 16 years. Not so anymore. I have no steady job, just a little sub work here and there, but to have had a husband who is unemployed along with me is a little... strange.

I was so consumed by the end date of his job that I hadn't actually considered what he would do once it was over. Well, Hubs was now HOME, all the TIME, and while I love him more than it is possibly normal to love another person, it was WEIRD. He began eating breakfast, he started helping with chores, he kept the baby while I subbed and often drove me to bible study. He was with me all the time. I have to say, there were a couple of days when I did not appreciate his presence.

I really didn't know what to make of this constant "other". I kind of liked my me time, my baby and mom time, my big kids coming home from school time. Now Hubs was around all the time, looking for jobs diligently, but still in the house. I felt like I had lost a little something.

Slowly, I got used to it. We learned to give each other space in the house and to communicate when we need a smidgen of time alone or to do some task quietly. I learned to take space for myself, and give him some also. We have talked about everything and anything and nothing. We have laughed a lot and watched foreign films on Netflix. We have watched the baby grow from infant to toddler together.

And it dawned on me that two things are likely: one or both of us will find full time work soon, and we will not always be together in this life unless by some freak accident, we go together. (Just know, it will probably be my driving if that's the case.)

And it made me happy that he's there, ALL the TIME, for right now. Love you, baby. I will miss you when employment comes our way.